Not a good start of the day

I am feeling energy-less now.... physically and emotionally tired...

Last nite didn't manage to sleep well. I wonder why Bernard kept waking up after a short naps... He seemed to be very energitic... I couldn't count i woke up for how many times to feed him and to swing him to sleep... maybe 4? 5? or more? Just like usual, I put him in bed at 8pm, but last nite he woke up at 9pm and smiled to me... since he didn't feel like want to continue sleeping, so i put him into the walker. He just stared at me and smiled =.=""" for quite some time. His face.... is so happy, I dunno what happened to him or mayb he thought i am funny with a sleepy face? gosh.... then after an hour i put him to sleep, then woke up then sleep then woke up the whole nite in this type of routine.... kill me... my physical is tired.

This morning Alfred did not want to go to school... coz he wanted to watch cartoon. Then after I "tam" him, he willing to go, but he did not want to wear shoes. I know he was just trying to find an excuse to throw his temper. eee.... triggered my fire... again, kena scolded by me and as usual cried then be good boy. I did not understand why he knew the ending but still behave so. I have no energy to think anymore. I just know I drove them to bbsitter and school with black face. I don't feel like want to talk at that moment. My emotion is exhausted.

People said "Start a day with a good emotion, everything will be fine on that day"... but seems like I had a worst morning... am i managed to continue? ... X.X